January 2009
1 post
i think lifes becomeing perfect.
i guess i mean i wouldn’t change what im doing for the world.
besides i sit at home alot.
im not going to school.
i don’t have a job
and i think anthony and i are going to start fighting soon.
but other then that our six months is veryy soon.
<33333333333333333(:
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sometimes. i feel like anthony doesn’t enjoy things about...
October 2008
16 posts
i am writing this book for a class i am taking.
i have written my outline.
: ) here goes.
Cracking Open My Brain
Outline: Intro
short calm brief cover to open the book
2. Past back back back in the day.
foster care
mom dying
saved from foster care
growing up
alive at last
3. Present who i am now.
how my past effected me
favorite colors.. crap like that survayyys.
...
“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who...”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via umbrellaboat) (via skysignal) (via kari-shma)
“I need love. I need the thing that happens when your brain shuts off and your...”
– Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation (via pleaserecycle) (via kari-shma)
“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you...”
– Unknown (via tuesdayslove) (via kari-shma)
angie pray
i miss you.
alot.
we don’t talk.
i miss michael.
we don’t talk anymore.
i miss kernnn
we don’t talk anymore.
come see. me.
i want it to be like how it was in the summer.
i wish i could tell him how much i care.
but i don’t want to be hurt by the downfall of him not telling me bck
so i just sit here wishing hoping and thinking.
dreamin of the day when he cant hold it in much longer
i wish he knew how he affected everyone everytime he plays
he amazing.
wayyyy amazing. if you honestly let me i would be so in love with you.
<333 OMFG
September 2008
16 posts
i’ve never realized how much your life can change with one persons choice.
i’m so fucking grateful for anthony honeslty i felt like shit the whole time when we were apart.
that kid is such an amazing person and i would honestly do anything to make up what i did.
i love him so much. not just in a relationship way. but also in a YOUR ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING PEOPLE I’VE EVER MET...
dear angie pray,
i love you.
i miss you.
you are life.
your presents is better then a hit of dmt.
i love you.
come home.
stay there.
let me vist.
I’m glad your happy.
<33
CPRAY
“The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot” If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am. And if it makes you less sad, we’ll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I’ll grow old and start acting my age. I’ll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold. A...
9/20 your the only dreams i have
your the first thing i think about in the morning
and the last thing i think about at night
he’s my worst mistake
this is my biggest regrate
i miss you & i am sorry
I never though it would turn out like this
it wasn’t supposed to be like this.
Now its to late and everytime i find the words to say i start to freeze
I broke my own heart and now i only have the ability to...
this is from 9/19 (please don't tell me you...
Dear Anthony Trotta,
I doubt that you care and I hope that you hate me as much as I hate my self. I am truly sorry and i have never in a million years wanted this to happen. God, i feel like and idiot. I guess you can’t feel something that you already are. I have been crying nonstop for the last two days. I never though it would hurt this bad. And i’m sorry. I hope this...
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“Too many people spend money they haven’t earned, to buy things they don’t want,...”
– Will Rogers (via crowned)
9/15
i abosolutly hate today, i do not like teachers right now. I don’t like annoying kids. I don’t like being blamed for everything. Not everything but i feel as if i have.
I am working in the office and all i really want is to be with my boyfriend and to play some music. I am on this rampage of purevolume all i wanna do is download and find new bands. Oh btw i’ve feel in love...
“I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of...”
– <3
yellowbear:
Xavier Rudd knowssssss.
You people...
i was lonley.
& you weren’t
giving up
i will not give up.
i will not stop trying.
i will not throw away love again.
i will try
i will love
i will try.
this will work.
i promise you.
i spent the night thinking about all the reasons why i should and why i shouldn’t.
and decided why ruin something so beautiful?
he’s mine.
ilovehim.
this isn't going to work
i don’t think i can do this.
how i can i ever even think about temmping my self with soething so perefct that i am never going to be able to see?
have can you ever fall in love with someone who can’t take their mind off of you if i can’t ever give you a chance to let you see who i really am i can never see you?
should we give this up?
should we just be misrable?
i already...
August 2008
10 posts
this realy sucks i have to start getting up at seven am.
and i stopped drinking coffee.
thatsucksmyballs////epicfail
i’m very happy this lovley morning.
:D
good start go a good day.
i’m sad.
AHHHH!
i love knowing that i’m falling in love.
“I don’t do drugs. I am drugs.”
– Salvador Dali (via vixeninthecity)
the worst feeling ever is:
knowing i’m not going to see you today.
1 tag
depressed little whore.
Moments like this i feel like stabbing out my eyes
its like 98 % and I’m on my way to work.
my sanity is in California.
and all i want to do is lay in a puddle of muddy water
blowing bubbles. whispering i love you
i miss you. come home? i’m going to be late to work again.
i’m always late. i hate my job. i hate my shit.
bye.
(she’s not even depressed.—...
i just realised.
I’m in love with him.
and he just left.
shes around. he's gone.
she bothers me.
anthony is leaving.
i am lonely.
all my friends are boring.
my life has no point.
sleep. wake up. sit on the computer until seven.
leave. stay out til three. come home myspace sleep.
somewhere in there i’ll eat fast food.
:] other then that boring life.
i am doing amazing.
i’m happy; i’m falling in love i swear.
my boyfriends amazing all though...
anthony.
i’m not sure i’ve been this happy in a long while. XD.
i really feel like i have a place to belong… i don’t think it should be spoken in that way.
i feel like. i have trust. i can trust in other people. that i can be my self around some kids with out even thinking about my flaws
i’m glad i can be around kids that love them selfs as much i love them and or they...
July 2008
9 posts
omfg
oh my frizzzzlegizzle.
i’m doing it, almost mine.
“‘Loving someone means taking the risk that they might fuck up your nicely...”
– Mark Haddon, A Spot of Bother (via into)
“I really don’t care about your imperfections, I don’t need someone perfect to...”
– me on love & imperfections (via thresca)
“Suburbia is where the developer bulldozes out the trees, then names the streets...”
– Bill Vaughan (via enquotations)
i'm somebody too.
so many diffrent things bother me at once i think its reduculous.
i’m getting really bothered with someone i hold so dear and love so much. i ask one thing i say another and it never gets a proper responce. its so annoying.
i just want to sleep. its 5:29 am and i haven’t gotten one peep of sleep yet. my beds taken over by a few, kern and angie. && i really don’t want to...
